God's child

So I have been listening to Shawn McDonald a lot lately, and I hit on his blog. This picture came up, which I'm assuming is his son, Cohen. I thought it was adorable. 

The longer I looked at it, the more I enjoyed it and found myself relating to the facial expression. 

Many days I feel like a little baby, whose heart and head totally confuse her. I thought the picure was really telling of this feeling. 

This feeling has been really apparent this week. As I was reading Romans with some friends, we stopped at this passage: 

What then? Are we to sin because we are not under law but under grace? By no means! Do you not know that if you present yourselves to anyone as obedient slaves, you are slaves of the one whom you obey, either of sin, wich leads to death, or of obedience, which leads to righteousness? But thanks be to God, that you who were once slaves of sin have become obedient from the heart to the standard of teaching to which you were committed, and, having been set free from sin, have become slaves of righteousness. I am speaking in human terms, because of your natural limitations. For just as you once presented your members as slaves to impurity and to lawlessness leading to more lawlessness, so now present your members as slaves to righteousness leading to sanctification.

When you were slaves of sin, you were free in regard to righteousness. But what fruit were you getting at the time from the tings of which you are now ashamed? The end of those things is death. But now that you have been set free from sin and have become slaves of God, the fruit you get leads to sanctification and its end, eternal life. For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Romans 6:15-23)

So for me, this passage really emphasized that I am a slave to righteousness, and those things that confuse my heart and my head are, in some instances, sinful.

I need to focus on Jesus and nothing else. Under Him, my heart and my head will be focused on the "free gift of God" that is eternal life "in [and only in] Christ Jesus our Lord." 

My love for Him needs to be first and foremost. I must strive for Him more than anything else in this world. I need to remember that the fruits of my sin are nothing, but the fruits of righteous through my Savior are all-encompassing. 

So, though many days I feel like an infant, struggling to understand the world, I have a free gift in Jesus, who came and died for all of my sins, making me God's child. 

And now that I am God's child, He will center me on Him, and my heart and head will not confuse me. He is in control.

For all who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God. For you did not receive the spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption as sons, by whom we cry, "Abba! Father!" The Spirit himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God, and if children, then heirs--heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ, provided we suffer with him in order that we may also be glorified with him. (Romans 8:14-17)