Yahweh

I feel in adequate today. It's one of those days when you really feel your humanity. When you ache to be something more. To feel as though you have a purpose.

I am constantly reminded that I am only holy because my Lord is holy. He sanctified me from all sins. And though I am not worthy, He loves me. He sees past all my bumbling and my cursing and my stumbling. He sees past my offences and my blemishes and my outrageous stupidity. He loves me.

Get that: He, the Lord Almighty, the Creator of the universe (known and unknown), the One who knows every hair on my head, the One who knows when I began and when I will end, the One whose face shines with such glory that a glimpse of His back almost killed Moses, that He LOVES me. And better yet, He forgives me. He aches for me to desire to know Him. He is jealous for my attentions.

Why do I act as if anything is better? Why do I care about anyone else's opinions? Why can't I crave Him and Him alone?

That is what I want. Why can't I remember that?

"Moses said, 'Please show me your glory.' And he said, 'I will make all my goodness pass before you and will proclaim before you my name "The Lord." And I will be gracious to whom I will be gracious, and will show mercy on whom I will show mercy. But,' he said, 'you cannot see my face, for man shall not see me and live.' And the Lord said, 'Behold, there is a place by me where you shall stand on the rock, and while my glory passes by I will put you in a cleft of the rock , and I will cover you with my hand until I have passed by. Then I will take away my hand, and you shall see my back, but my face shall not be seen'" (Exodus 33:18-23).

"For there is no distinction: for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified by his grace as a gift, through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus, whom God put forward as a propitiation by his blood, to be received by faith" (Romans 3:23).